The Struggle

I have been struggling with this lately. I haven't posted many reviews or written very much and I have been trying to figure out why. What is wrong with me? What is holding me back? Then I realized... it's me. I keep making excuses, when really I need to look more inward.

I have always written for fun. I get an idea and write and write. The story finishes and I'm happy. Sometimes I'll send it to a few friends, but I've never really had a great desire for fame or money for my writing. I am okay if it just sits in my computer for years and years and I'm the only one who loves my characters. I'm okay if it never gets published. Or, even if I do publish it, then I'm okay if my shelf is the only book shelf it ever sits on. I write for me. Stories constantly play in my head and sometimes, one of them just needs to escape. That's why I write.

I love the written word and getting lost in a story. However, recently, this has all felt like a job. I have been reviewing for people and it hasn't been as fun any more. I have been co-writing with a friend with the goal of traditional publishing and all the editing and steps has made it feel like a job. It hasn't been fun anymore. I need these things to be fun again. So, I'm going to review books that I choose to read. Maybe they'll be new, maybe they'll be old, maybe they'll be books authors have sent me, but it's going to be on my time and not just because this book is next on the list of the many authors who send me books.

Please, feel free to email me and ask me to review your book. That is totally fine. I may feel up to reading it. :D

In the meantime, I have learned that telling stories through art can be fun as well. So, this blog is going to be more about my creative outlets instead --- reading, writing, and art. I hope you all understand that I need to take care of me. I don't want my hobbies to feel like a job. I just want it to be fun!

Thanks for reading!